Lying Awake

Sometimes you lay awake at night and nothing will stop the echos. You try to close your eyes, but flashes and glimpses of the past creep in to haunt you. That is where I am at tonight. Sad, but true.

I will never understand the motives of people, but I will say this. Most days I feel like the majority of my life decisions have blown up in my face. Yet, I go on. I carry on with my work, my hunt, and what I call my life. I am not miserable in this forage through the days of my path. Instead, it is as I have said before, I believe things will somehow get better. The more I work toward the end goal things will fall and things will rise. Unfortunately, in the meantime I have to deal with a whole lot of shit along the way.

Clearly, someone got to me today. I was torn down, for what I can only believe was to make himself feel better by destroying someone's relative happiness. I am shorn, bruised, and kicked but I am not destroyed. That part I know to be true. As to when the wrenching will subside, that may take a day or two.

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